Update 2.0

I need to apologize yet again for not writing. It's been about 2 months since my last post (sounds like confession). In my last post I was writing about getting back to practicing, but I had another setback. I was hitting for about 2 weeks when I did something to my back. I have no idea what, but all I know is that it was very painful. I could barely sit down, it hurt to stand up, walk up stairs, even sleep. So as you could tell I couldn't practice anymore. Now, I was depressed after I hurt my knee because I was starting to play great and I had to sit out 6-8 weeks but during my rehab I was watching matches I got excited to play again even though I knew it would be tough to get back into. Once I got to practice again I found a new enjoyment in playing. I was happy, smiling, excited to practice and begin tournaments. Well, that all abruptly changed when I hurt my back. I think I was in a severe depression then. Asking myself why is this happening again? I played all throughout college without many big injuries why now? Each week I thought I was getting better but then something happened and my back hurt again. It was like 2 steps forward 5 steps back. Each week I had to go online and withdraw from tournaments that I wanted to play. Each week my ranking would slip. Each week my cardio would fade. Each week off would mean triple the weeks needed to get my fitness back, my rhythm back, my mind back to playing again. Now this is the first week back that I am allowed to hit, and I'm hoping to get out there and nothing hurts, but I won't find out until I hit so keep your fingers crossed. I am hoping these past few weeks/months are the last of my injuries, and I can start to move forward in this sport. I just need to keep positive thoughts flowing. I know there will be a difficult few weeks ahead but I just need to keep moving forward and never give up. To do that I'll take a lesson for the US Women's World Cup Soccer Team. Down 2-1 to Brazil (best team with the best player in the world) late in extra time, they never gave up. Ended up tying 2-2 and won 5-3 in penalty kicks. Never give up and hope for the best, that's what I'll be doing in the coming weeks.